July 2, 2013
I post a lot of happy statuses and pictures on Facebook. I mean, who wants to read depressing stuff in their news feed? Plus, I like celebrating the fun with others. But on the flip side of that – I like to hear encouragement on the not-so-good days too.
I feel like no one really talks about how hard motherhood is in the early days. Everyone wants to focus on the cute baby instead of the roller coaster of emotions that a woman feels after popping out a kid. Sure, babies are a blessing; but along with the joy are depression and resentment.
I believe many more mothers experience the negative emotions than just those who are willing to talk about it. Because of the guilt. How can we feel so negative at such a joyous time? Continue Reading →
April 4, 2013
So, yes – it’s been a very long time since I posted anything. I have a lot of
excuses, reasons; mostly, I just didn’t feel like writing and editing. Someday I’ll be a super blogger. Oh well. I have a few things that are just dying to get out. Here’s the update:
She loves wearing Mom’s shoes
Zubair’s schedule is starting to get to me. Don’t get me wrong – we’ve made it work. And I love saving money on childcare. But that whole “two ships passing in the night” is our life right now. We are on completely different schedules. And to make matters worse, now he doesn’t get home until past midnight – so there’s no way that I can stay up to say goodnight to him anymore. I miss him. The weekends have become so sacred to me. Unfortunately, he just found out he has to work two Saturdays a month now. I will be happy when this is over. But I don’t want to wish our lives away. This might be the new normal for a little while. The benefits are definitely a plus… Continue Reading →
January 15, 2013
My husband is working on a new movie now with a new schedule. He has the evening shift, which is a total flip from our previous routine. I’m trying to make the most of it; but it’s definitely an adjustment. I’m looking at this transition in terms of pros and cons…
- We’re saving on childcare since Zubair is home during the day.
- I don’t have to worry about making a big fancy dinner. I had cereal last night. 🙂
- This schedule is only for a time…probably will change around May.
- Zubair will get more sleep since he doesn’t have to be at work at 6:30 am or earlier. Continue Reading →
January 11, 2013
I don’t believe in New Year’s Resolutions – mostly because I don’t like to set myself up to fail.
I try to be as realistic as possible. I know I won’t diet because I don’t believe in dieting. I’m wearing maternity clothes now anyway… 🙂 And I won’t exercise regularly because I’m not ready yet.
People only really making lasting change in their lives when they hit a point of pain or aggravation – when their current situation hurts too much to continue. That’s when the true change happens. Continue Reading →
January 2, 2013
Lately, while thinking about the arrival of our second child, I’ve been longing to be just a mom, and put my career on hold.
This is not the first time I’ve felt this way. Sometimes I get angry at having to pay someone else to play with my child, when I want to be the one to play with her. Plus, I am frustrated with being distracted by either motherhood or my work. It seems like it’s always a juggle between the two – and it’s tiring.
But then I wonder, if I quit my job – would I miss it? Would I regret my decision? Would I be bored? Is it true what they say that the grass is always greener on the other side? Continue Reading →
December 5, 2012
The Ricki Lake documentary, The Business of Being Born, changed my life.
I used to be scared of birth. In fact, a few jobs ago, I worked at a maternity home with plenty of opportunity to attend a live birth. But I refused; I was too nervous.
But then, before I was even married, I saw the film on Netflix streaming. I cried at every birth. It was beautiful. It was then that I knew birth was wonderful, magical, and different than I had imagined.
All of the horror stories I heard growing up didn’t matter anyone. It didn’t have to be that way. I could choose my own dream birth.
Fast forward a few years.
I first chose my insurance plan simply on the financial factor. I picked the one that had the cheapest out of pocket cost for maternity care, which ended up being Kaiser, an HMO.
I got what I paid for. My prenatal care was less than desired. I was lucky to see a midwife, but unlucky to only get a few minutes with her (or whoever was available) each time. I hated going. I strongly disagreed with their model of care. I cried, and argued with my husband. I wanted something more, something different – my dream birth. Continue Reading →
November 30, 2012
The past couple of years I’ve noticed people posting on Facebook what they are thankful for each day of November. I’ve been wanting to do this, but didn’t have my act together again this year.
So here are 30 things (some serious, some fun) I’m thankful for, all in one post in no particular order…
- My husband – I really hit the relationship jackpot. He’s caring, funny, and super hot! Even my great-aunt thinks so… What more could I ask for?
- My daughter – she’s the light of my life.
- The little peanut growing in my tummy. Continue Reading →
November 28, 2012
This year was the first Thanksgiving spent with just the three of us…the first time we didn’t celebrate with extended family or friends. It was nice and quiet. We even had our meal catered to make it even more relaxing and easy.
Zubair had to work the day before, and the Saturday after – so we decided to let someone else cook for us. We both love to cook, but weren’t feeling up to it this year. I really enjoyed our meal, and would choose this option again in a heartbeat.
It ended up being a wonderful decision, because little did we know, Zoe wouldn’t feel well that whole week. She needed our undivided attention.
On the Sunday before Thanksgiving, Zoe came down with a fever and wasn’t herself. She didn’t want to play or do anything, so we snuggled on the couch practically the whole day. Zubair was called into work; which meant we could watch the Katy Perry movie. Continue Reading →
November 19, 2012
Last week, my husband and I announced my pregnancy on Facebook. I was anxious to tell the news for a few reasons. First being – I’m not so great with secrets. Secondly, I’m excited. And third – I wanted everyone to know why I wasn’t blogging.
My morning sickness was terrible. I was nauseous for several hours every day. And I was exhausted! So with work, and taking care of my family – I needed a break with blogging. I didn’t really plan the break very well. I didn’t even end my Frugal Friday series properly. Continue Reading →
October 12, 2012
Zoe was very helpful
After reading an article about a woman who reduced her personal belongings to 100 items, I was motivated to clean out my closet. I’ve been wanting to do it for a while, so I finally had the push I needed.
I said goodbye to some high heels that I’ll probably never wear again. Trying them on one last time sealed the deal – they are way too high and uncomfortable. My taste in shoes has changed since I became a mom. In fact, my husband has inspired me to only purchase comfortable shoes from now on. Thankfully, there are some beautiful flats out there! Continue Reading →